Reasons 10/24/2006

From what has been told
From what I have been sold
I wanted to have someone
to love me
I realized, justification of means
don’t mean shit
when the bitch
can’t comprehend my beliefs

EXPLAIN TO ME NOW
EXPLAIN TO ME HOW
I WAS THE GUILTY SUBJECT
THE ONE YOU HAD TO FUCK WITH
I TRIED TO DO ALL I COULD
BUT HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO WRONG
I HAVE PUT UP WITH YOUR SHIT
too long

Those times we spent together
the habitual harmonious times
The glistening in your eyes
I thought there was happiness within

But.

EXPLAIN TO ME NOW
EXPLAIN TO ME HOW
You could fuck another
BREAK THE TRUST
WE BUILT TOGETHER
REASONS
GRIEVANCES
DECIEVANCES

This is the last time
There’s no way out of a lie
A lie of Life
That you so lead me to believe
Now I lye here Bleeding
Out the Trust
You had to FUCK.

Emotional Masquerade 12/28/2006

There's times when I want something more, something more like me.  There's times when this dress rehearsal seems incomplete, but you see the colors in me like no one else, and behind your dark glasses, you're something else.  You're really lovely underneath it all.  You want to love me underneath it all.  I'm really lucky underneath it all.  You're really lovely.  I see how love can bleed like a bitch with all the shit you have put me through, but I thought we could be happy together.  I thought there was a reason to spend time with you and in the end get fucked over.  I’ll show you the way to fuck it up, but I have no reason, you’re the only one who can understand me, or so I thought.

Feeling Empty On the Inside
Grieving over the loss of what was harmony
Shrieking over the thought of the inevitable
Spreading, Teething, Succeeding
You succubus
you fuckin' bitch
Why did I have to think there was something within all this?
I tried on this life that we put together
I wore it with deepest respect
But look
What the fuck, is this what I get?
I helped you
lead you to become a better person
But look, you tore away this life
 that we worked so hard to keep away from submission
….I’m waiting here
Wondering was it worth it
all that that shit
All those times
I thought there was happiness
But it was coveting bliss
I turn my back
I learn that
I wasn't the one
I wasn't fun
I wasn't there
I wasn't near
I wasn't
I wasn't what you wanted

Needles and Bruises can hurt, but emotional turmoil is eternal

End...The End

I used to listen to you
I would do all that you could, tell me to do
But Why?
Why do have to be like that?
Why did you tell me you were going to stay|
When all you did and left me for someone
This path is not one that I wanted
Why do you yearn to hurt me?
Why do you take everything?
I gave you life
I gave you everything
Except the Strife
Why is it
That I’m the
End….the end
YOU WILL Be THIS FRIEND
YOU WILL LOSE IT ALL IN THE END
YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD PAIN
WAIT FUCKER WAIT
AND YOU WILL GET AS YOU DESERVE
You’re going to feel this pain
You’re going to be the one will serve
Their demise
all your lies

All our cries
EVADE
THIS LIFe

Travesty 2/21/2007

Holding thy hand.
What is this of man?
Lies
Deception
fruition

Greatness use to reign

Now we have all gone insane

Put a bullet through your head

And leave your body dead
seek out existence

While people burn in the distance

Die for harmony

Die for sanctity

Kill to believe

Burn to succeed

Lye dead

When is the end

Blood spills

As we kill

Kill for a reason
Kill for creation?
Annihilate this society

Bring us to our intimacy
Serenity

Travesty

Lie to your self

To regain health

Live a life of pure desecration

Our life of purification

3/23/2008

Take my life

Take my life away

Take my life

Bleed it into today

Take my life

Detest it any other way

Bleedin’

That’s what you been seein’

Deny thy ability

Take it all away

Till there’s nothing

But an epitome

Take my life

Take it away

Take it with this knife

Leave nothing remain

Obliterate me all

Leave nothing

Erase me from the pain

Take my life

Eviscerate me from this strife

Take me

Take me

Leave nothing left

For thy to see

Take my life

take

10/31/2008

No one can understand the issue
Or all that we are damned here to do
We are given a second chance
To ideate the essence of forgiveness
We imbrue our souls with our wrong ways
Blindly worship a false idol

Looking inward we see our mistakes
We attempt forgiveness, that alleviates
The whole revelations is still a bit iffy as to what you did to me
That glorious hypocrisy
Just one big issue
There’s no breakthrough
Creating,

Assimilating
The maniacal ingle that resonates within
Bring out the mighty dark new
One that will illume
Darkness shall reign on high

For all will stare
Confused, shock and awe
Euphoric madness
Satanic darkness
We become this stygian
this Mephistophelian
Creating this impish
villain within all inside
that no one can vanquish
The only way to win
is to give in.

Silent Betrayal 6/11/2009

He just sits there wondering
why doesn’t anyone understand me
How can I get through this strife?
Who cursed me this life
Sitting there, contemplating
Eyes filling with emotion
Soon to be dissipating
Arms growing numb
Staring back at what all has become
Pain stricken beings
Enveloping beneath the skin
Away from everyone seeing
No One feels my pain
The time transcends on
Driving me more insane
Fingers sweating bloody tears
screaming silently that no one hears
Sitting here deciphering
Mindlessly crying
Waiting is done
the man sits.

Holding himself to the effect
everyone calming him
pleading not to give in
too late
the dead date
has been set