Poems

There

There's times when I want something more, something more like me.
There's times when this dress rehearsal seems incomplete,
but you see the colors in me like no one else, and behind
your dark glasses, you're something else. You're really lovely
underneath it all. You want to love me underneath it all.
I'm really lucky underneath it all. You're really lovely.
I see how love can bleed like a bitch with all the shit you have
put me through, but I thought we could be happy together. I thought
there was a reason to spend time with you and in the end get fucked over.
I’ll show you the way to fuck it up, but I have no reason, you’re the only
one who can understand me, or so I thought....
Feeling Empty On the Inside
Grieving over the loss of what was harmony
Shrieking over the thought of the inevitable
Spreading, Teething, Succeeding
You succubus
you fuckin bitch
Why did I have to think there was something within all this?
I tried on this life that we put together
I wore it with deepest respect
But look
What the fuck, is this what I get?
I helped you
lead you to become a better person
But look, you tore away this life
that we worked so hard to keep away from submission
….I’m waiting here
Wondering was it worth it
all that that shit
All those times
I thought there was happiness
But it was coveting bliss
I turn my back
I learn that
I wasn’t the one
I wasn’t fun
I wasn’t there
I wasn’t near
I wasn’t
I wasn’t what you wanted

Reason

From what has been told
From what I have been sold
I wanted to have someone
to love me
I realized, justification of means
don’t mean shit
when the bitch
can’t comprehend my beliefs
EXPLAIN TO ME NOW
EXPLAIN TO ME HOW
I WAS THE GUILTY SUBJECT
THE ONE YOU HAD TO FUCK WITH
I TRIED TO DO ALL I COULD
BUT HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO WRONG
I HAVE PUT UP WITH YOUR SHIT
too long
Those times we spent together
the habitual harmonious times
The glistening in your eyes
I thought there was happiness within

But.
EXPLAIN TO ME NOW
EXPLAIN TO ME HOW
You could fuck another
BREAK THE TRUST
WE BUILT TOGETHER
REASONS
GRIEVANCES
DECIEVANCES
This is the last time
There’s no way out of a lie
A lie of Life
That you so lead me to believe
Now I lye here Bleeding
Out the Trust
You had to FUCK

BoTToM

I look at the pictures I remember the times we had, long ago I can still hear your voice How I can see your presence When you’re not here I sit on my bed Looking at the times we had I wish I could have done something to prevent that day that day you were taken away I still can hear the cries and screams I cannot sleep with the depressing dreams My Life was entirely with you How was I supposed to know what to do? I was not near you I was away from this angel That I will dearly miss I feel alone now, shunned with the Burden, that I cannot forgive I wish I could have taken the life Not you I wish you didn’t have to play around and make me believe That you actually and truly loved me How could I have been so wrong. I thought I was what you wanted But now You’re at the BOTTOM

End...The ND

I used to listen to you I would do all that you could, tell me to do But Why? Why do have to be like that? Why did you tell me you were going to stay| When all you did and left me for someone This path is not one that I wanted Why do you yearn to hurt me? Why do you take everything? I gave you life I gave you everything Except the Strife Why is it That I’m the End….the end YOU WILL Be THIS FRIEND YOU WILL LOSE IT ALL IN THE END YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD PAIN WAIT FUCKER WAIT AND YOU WILL GET AS YOU DESERVE You’re going to feel this pain You’re going to be the one will serve Their demise all your lies All our cries EVADE THIS LIFe

Fear (Hope)

Fear Hope Fear Life Listen-Cry Why do we listen to People? All They do is throw you down and make you Loathe yourself Life what Life What life be here when you were The One killed Life and Left Desolate Happiness What great People Fire you? Why did You commandeer Life and Remain The Sadistic Thoughts Why the Fuck Couldn’t you Let me be DIE FUCKER

ReLenT

Venturing down this road of life
Enduring all this strife
Plagued by past events
Enveloping myself in this Relent
I walked once down this road
Alone, guilt stricken and cold
I never experienced true happiness
I have been biding my time with sadness
Lost souls attempted to help and care
No one would listen to all I had to bare
I had one who I thought was right
I lost it all in that fight
Struck down by a mightier power
Only to be submerged in this hour
I watched as life, dreams passed me by
I watched, helped and died
My soul felt free of greatness
But cursed with powerlessness
I never saw what life would be like
I was only here for one night
Now I see where life should be
I wish life could be with me
I would never turn back to all the hate
I would walk through that gate
To a better land
And a calm and gentle hand
Life never
I never know life could treat me so well
I have been through such a bitter spell
Now here I am
Alone, being all I can
No one would listen
The light wouldn’t glisten
Never would show me the light
Never would help me on that night
Now I have a savior
One who will make me see
I had it all, and I have it all here, within me   

$o(!3+y

Left here undesirable Burdened with a love Surrendering to desolation Celled upon for a favor Thrown down for being a savior What did we do wrong when we established Desecrate, rape and pillage Govern-mentals Why should we agree to reminisce about the future? Our problems are the delusional past How can you better an ever so collapsing brigade? That shall annihilate the innocent and masquerade Cast upon by the ever so tempting Anti-Christ We shall live many of our lives upon this carcass of forsaken memories Dividing our ways to reach To rebirth the lost scenes that have fallen vacant to Our collapsing virtue of bigotry The ones who used to be Now expired from their beliefs cast out upon this retched nation Where did we fall to Where has amerika been divided into while we acquired the hypocrisy? wHAt are we gaining to Eternity? Sacrificing bodies Sacrificing memories We lose our past We try to better ourselves from our mistakes that have been redeemed lost…. We tried to construct a way back to the reasons We attempted to establish a communication with the withered past We Gave it all to see the devastation once more….. Once exterminated Who will pick up the fallen fragments of a shattered Society? Burnt and Charred remnants still reside within this cesspool of beggars and choosers Who will reign above god, once again? Who will we Idol above our lord? When will we give into temptation of an uprising martyrdom? Who are we really following….…read between the lines…. Indulge in the Wrong rights, Become what should Fall to the damned and fall, forever writing down our demise to our new beginning to the hellacious end We Shall……. KNOW NOTHING…..LEARN NOTHING…. JUST CYCLE THROUGH ABOMINATION…………….ONCE MOre

EnouGH

I walked behind, next, and adjacent to your Path I followed you and wondered how life would be I slipt into this delusional portal or serenity and Exited into this bitter sweetness of Reality I had you I had you near me with all the times I laughed at you, you laughed at mine I felt secure to let myself free this Mind I levitated across the abyss that I Shan't plummet I followed you and Transpired into this hole This Martyrdom I felt alone I felt free I felt this serenity Escape Exit Expire The times The places The ways The walks All seem to have drifted away from my grasp I still yearn for your acceptance I listen to what you say I feel as if I'm this decay Which doesn't want to leave this day But I know Inside My Soul Lives this time Lives our Time Please Please forgive me As I shall forgive you I love you I'm scared On my hands and Knees I grasp this last bit of triumph And hope that you Pick me back up

InDecency

invoke Never Feel you have nothing going for you Never let the Deceptions get the best of you Never let yourself insist that It was your fault Never cry in Fear of what may by Future Never feel secluded of your dreams Never walk across Treachery with delicacy Never Give into the temptation Never Free Your Mind Never Free Your Kind Confide Confide INside Disperse your answers Questions to other Feel Greatness surround you Cast away The Dark shadows Of Indecency Submerge yourself In Serenity Lay Close To a True Friend Lay Far from Lies Lay Close to Surprise Lye down Invoke Let The Answers The Questions Never feel Never Kneel Listen Pray Evoke The Proclamation OF Devastation Be Joyous Not Alone   

StriVe

I strived so hard to keep you from crying And I yearned so hard to keep you happy I’ve tried I’ve embarked on so many crusades Repeating myself of false attempts tried so hard I drifted away I pushed you away And I allowed myself To release you From my mind I tried to be with you But got rejected Thrown Down Spit on But no matter how hard I try No matter what I endure I’ll never forget you Or even Be over you 

L()ST

i have been left stranded
I'm seeking an abyss
I shall and i will miss
Your sweet heart
The soft and Gentle touch
Ill miss it all
I will lay way to the downfall
Greeting this end i have been destined to overcome
this is my life
This is my Virtue
Left here Stranded
Lost
abandoned
This is what all has been commanded
Not by I
Not by You
But The Self-COnscience Virtue 

Give

Feel the seclusion Of this vial delusion I let you move in I let you I felt I had something to Give I felt like THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE FOR TO LIVE The glance of you Running from the sound of virtue Tripping over your dreams Hearing those screams You dealt with me NO FEAR ETERNITY Look at me Tell me what you see Do you see I’m happy Do you feel my glory Do you feel the story Do you want me Do you want to live DO YOU WANT TO LIVE? Do you

TranQUILiTy

Trying to listen to what you say How do I know you’re still the same? I help you as much as I can but, Sweety, how do I know you listen to what I comprehend You listen to what I say I listen to you cry on this day

I did what I could with you But, I don’t want to Feel oblivious to the fact Have to suffer over this dispute

I look at you and cry I’m happy always when you’re at my side But, you don’t know that you’re killing me inside I confide my feelings and my life

In your loving soul I love you dearly and hope for none of this to be I love you, I hope you love me I don’t mind helping you I don’t mind grasping my virtue Of patience

I try and try to make you see You say you understand me How can you comprehend what I say When everything you always betray It’s ironic when you talk about your parents When you’re no better in their inheritance I feel the serenity that you give me I feel everything, not used to be

I hold you by my side Hoping I’m making you feel right I kiss you to reassure you I’m here You turn away and cry in fear I love it when you’re near You lend your gentle ear So I can whisper

HOW I LOVE YOU SO DEAR
I LISTEN TO EVERYTHING
I LISTEN TO YOUR PAIN
I LISTEN TO YOU CRY
I LISTEN TO THE DAY
I LISTEN TO YOUR LIFE
I LISTEN TO YOUR DESPITE
DON’T YOU LISTEN WHEN I SAY?
DON’T THINK THAT
DON’T ASSUME WRONG
I LOVE YOU
I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER LONG

The darkness has been lifted from my withered soul The happiness actually reigns once again

Because of you sweety
Everything, everything
Is serenity
I love you,
You Dearly

FREESelF

FreeSelf The power of one The decision of one The mind of one Is this what its all become? Is this what you need? Is this what you want to succeed This maybe the way you want But what happens when you fail Your life prevail Destroyed……annoyed This is what…this is This is life…..

TyME

FreeSelf The power of one The decision of one The mind of one Is this what its all become? Is this what you need? Is this what you want to succeed This maybe the way you want But what happens when you fail Your life prevail Destroyed……annoyed This is what…this is This is life…..

[ACCEPT]-ance

Happiness
Sadness
Confusion
Delusion
Cry
Fly
Appreciation
Hesitation
Help
Dealt
Cherish
Diminish
Talk
Walk
Exclaimed
Proclaimed
Trying
Dying
Dreams
Screams
Cared
Despaired

[Ma|/|]-[M]K[i|/|Ð]

Slaughterhouse of the mass-es
Eternal (re)-[demp]-{tion}
CPhAiRlEdNrTeSn –P-A-Y- as another pass-es
Lives within (de)-{cep}-[tion] No one cares of who leaves
P-F-e-I-o-E-p-N-l-D-e-S sBcUuYrrIyNiGng for {Free}-(dom)
Lead by the O’ great oHnEe who (de)-{ceive}(s)
Expiring within the ma[W]rt[O]y[R]r[L]d[D]om
(Dys)-{functional} abyss that portrays lig-ht
(Happi)-{ness}runs within the -M-I-N-D-
Slaughtered of their sig-ht
The minds lay bleeding within [Ma|/|]-[M]K[i|/|Ð]
Burning eternal with –FL-EI-AF-RE-
Moping on slaughtered dreams, no one’s (dr)-[HEAR]-(m)

Never Acclaimed, tell me why...

Never acclaimed, no instructions
Delirious, explained to me why
Why am I the black sheep?
The one that everyone execrates
Never accompanied with reasons
Excluded I am, execrated
Acclaimed, lost
Forgot
Emotionless
Scared and retro-flexing
Smelling burnt flesh in your arms now
Barren
Frozen
Biting me
Freezing unconscious me
Withering seduction of pain
Disperse
Crying
Laughing away
Plummeting away now
Digesting fear as it sets in
Lifeless
Ripping
Syringes cut
Crimson flows upon the floor
Weary, giving up on the brink of life
Quitter
Crimson
Flows upon the floor
Trickles down the stairs here
Weary, emotionless now are you
Empty
White skin
Blood not moving
No more protecting you
Withering away from you now
Skinless
Diesel
Vapor of gas
Solid of liquid mass
Supplied for the many people now
We use
Gravestone
Engraved lies you
Your name across the face
For the many to come, for the many here
Lie you
Water
Trickles across
Blood flows upon the death
Water taketh you away from me
I’m gone
Fire
Devours you
Burns away the lost one
Fears, sadness life burns away me
Freedom 

DeliCAte

...how i wish to hold you in my arms your face so vibrant when ever i turn.... your eyes so delicate and sweet.... and im glad that you found.....me
.....how i wish that i could hold your hand ...........and twirl you around as fast as i can.... to kiss your soft and vibrant lips..... to catch you when ever you slipped....
....how i wish to keep you with me.. ...how i wish that you were here the days grow weary and sad..... but yet i know you're all i have...... how i love you Nicole........
....how i wish i could take this moment ....and make it last forever... how i know some day there will be an end.... but i know you're all i depend in.....

COuld this happen..or has it already began?

Judgment Day

Could there have been a way to make this never possible?
Could we have done something to avoid this obstacle?
How can we live free?
When the pain and sorrow burrow within thee.
Would there actually be happiness?
Or a quick crooked 5-minute bliss.
Could there be an answer to our problems?
Do we always have to acquire someone else to solve them?
Why do we kill to kill?
Is it something that makes us ill?
How could we overcome our fears?
When they are already here
What might we make of ourselves then?
Perhaps we could all be whole once again.
The sinisteristic thoughts plague our mind
They have killed it all, even mankind
Do we care about the loss of others?
Or the death and numbers
Questions lay within the soul
What have we done to become so old?
Many people survive on what little they have?
Look at us, what do we have?
The nation will lie burning
But perhaps we might be able to stop it, before the turning
Judgment Day will come
What’s left? What’s it to be done?