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I thought I was the issue
I just kept following
pleading, dying, giving in
to everything, because
it was all about you

How the fuck could
I have this idea
this significance
why did you make me
follow you, change me
defile me into this

I can’t feel the same
Who I was
imbrue it in my mind
burn me, you will never
find.  I’m not the one
who has been left to become

I listened to your lies
holding close those emotions
that I detest to idol
I thought you were this angel
That was one with me

Terrified, falling down this spiral
flowing inward to my prior
existence.  I should have never

Believed you, or realized this.

I’m still a bit iffy
As to what all you made of me
Create and destroy
belittle me, as I’m this innocent
fragile toy

The ingle in your eyes, captivated me
annihilated everything of what I once was
This hypocritical sub clause.
Is who…pause

I shall resume, I shall avenged the death
rise above this shit, and show you
don’t fuck with me.  I may be feeble
frail and broken, but its my turn
and I will set out and burn

that impish creature from within.
It’s with this I make this incise,

Don’t worry, my hands
are very precise.
There’s nothing you can do
All you made of me
is coming back
ready to fuck some shit up
first up, its you!

When I saw that twinkle in your eye

I knew this was the night

I would die

I tried to offer all I had

But it wasn’t enough

I conformed to your ways

I offered all my forgiveness

But it has left me with

This

I can’t just dive in and promise you all

I can’t break away my actuality from the seam

This is all starting to sound

Like a very phantasmagorical dream

I can only offer you this elixir that I brew

And the satisfaction of loving you

I don’t want this to fizzle into nothing

I want us to become something

I’m on the border of insane and love

How can something like you

Come from above?

Your thoughts I can’t define

All I know is that you’re mine

My own destiny of everlasting

Lunacy

I shall live out this life

With a gird of stolen happiness

To get me through these days

But it was never enough

For you to see

Never enough for me

My maze of a life

Is a labyrinth consuming

And bleeding out

for you to see.

DriveL

Why do I have to give birth to a poem?

And why’s it need to

Contain this 10 word quorum?
I know this is none of your concern
but why is it I have to discern

This matrix of randomocity

Is it a requirement of me?

I don’t mean to prattle.
Surely don’t intend on a rabble

To make these words touch

Your inner ear

And such

But I am being quite sincere

I’m only doing this

To satisfy my grade

Allowing it a backer

That won’t fade.

I’m not a slacker

Once you get down

To the nitty-gritty

You surely will see

There’s truce

No more having to perfuse

Till next time

This has been a Coulograptic rhyme 

HateRiX

The abysmal matrix

Brings forth the undying

Rotting critics.
Whom discern away from

All that’s right
Exiled and prattling aimlessly

Trying to satisfy their hypocrisy

To give birth to their false revelation

Trying to bring a truce, to contain them

Their inner backer that once was strong

Now is nothing just becoming none

Becoming one with its entity

And getting down to the nitty-gritty

Nothing is left, all is forsaken

Redeem your soul

Redeem your soul

Destroy the ties that bind you

Bring life to a weary new

Or die protecting

Blindly sacrificing

The false prophecy

AmeriKa the brutal few

And the cynic statue

Eternal Melancholy

 I cant stand who I am

And I feel there will never be an end

I love to be with you

I only want me to see

The fights are not something I promise

I just don’t know what to do

I cant escape from this

You're not the issue I'm confused

I'm the one who should be infused

With how you are

And your ways

I'm just behind on everything

I'm just this disgrace

The ability for you to want

Someone as me

Appalls the very question of

This one that you love

I don’t know when I retract

I'm confused when I act

I feel that I'm not the one

You set eyes on

That mystical being

I'm just this sad excuse

For you to love
That you’re seeing

I cant get it

Oblivious to this destitute

That I love.

My feelings change

My ideas grow strange

But I always

No matter the time

Always want you

I cant give you up

Nor allow you to be taken

I want you as mine

I just wish I was the one

You loved, and not the

One you despise

The lies of everlasting deceit

Is the life I see, not of my choosing

But of my doing.

I love you,

I cant write those words you want

Only I can provide the feelings you

Desire, your eternal
melancholy

 

I took all your sorrows

I banished off all those bad tomorrows

When I look at the day

I wonder how and if it may

We took the time to listen

After all this is done

This will never be again

Listened to all your bullshit lies

I held you in my arms and let you cry

Through all this abandonment

You have finally made it evident

Of all your involvement

You now have made it true, finofuckinfinally

You’re fucking bleeding out into me

I’m becoming his narcissistic bitch

One that I don’t want to fuck with

Where did I go wrong?

Those times we shared all along

We listened, we laughed

Now bitch you’re on your fucking ass

You bleed out your dreams to me

While I lay in bed at night, I want to scream

Why did you choose me to be your beloved host?

One that brings you all this, the most

I never wanted to become something I’m not

So all I have to say on this night

Watch your ass, because I’m going to give you the fright

You Bleed Out Into Me

You bleed your dreams, wants and woes

Now I have nothing left of my existence

To Show

 

Reflec-Shun

Come right into me

You Fucked up all these

All these

Things I

So, So wanted to fucking be

Behind that shadow of the doubt

I’m screaming my fucking lungs out

Will you submerse me in this?

Will I surface and bleed to breathe

From looking into the circumstances

You just fucked up all your chances

I want to be, but not be burnt to the crisp

Not be dealt, not having to deal with this

You lied through those phantasmagorical eyes

You Reconstructed me into something I despise

With all those things we done

In this end, this is where it has all become

The time of bliss was something

Those reflections I see in my eyes

Were fucking lies

Stood there, blindly shot me

Becoming this entity

This unmerciful stygian that I thought I eluded

You and I into believing we had something

We built up this mutualistic relationship

Never stopped to realize through all this

We were losing and breaking at the seams

With this being said, I went and want to be

Away from all this and the animosity

Of living and indulging in something

Not Me