Reflection

you always ruin everything
youre just a fucking disease
everything i do
you never are pleased
what the fuck am i doing wrong?
is it you who are
you are goin to be dead
after long?
I tried to meet your expectations
but look where we leave them
unfinished and true
I tried to describe and do it my way
but all you did is bitched and
my oh my you're goin to pay
i dealt with all your promising lies
and left them to their demise
Listening to you is not
not what should have been done
but in the end I'm the one
you threw all your hate and angst against us
and left we are now here wondering
was it you who was wrong?
or was it I all along?

wrap this tie around your throat
i want to see you fucking choke
holding this noose is all we have in common
holding against our bullshit lies
and everything we despise
choke on the lies of this transitioning noose
hold it close, i want to see you
i want you to suffocate under the benevolence of a fuckin lie
you just had to go against everything
everything i despise
does it mean anything to you
anything at all with what I try to make and do?
This noose will hold your ever lasting release
from the lovely sadistic parasite of a fucking disease
that use to be me
I let go one last time
I gave in, i confided in your embrace
but now im lying in a pool of everlasting distaste
you had to let me think you were going to change
I will never be the same
Let loose, let loose of the noose
envelope me in this ending transition
of what you wanted me to be again